I am so fucking lost. I think I'm in over my head.

Apparently, I'm a player.

Mmm'yep.

Anyone out there actually see that coming? Cuz, I gotta tell you, it came out of nowhere for me.

Okay, so here's the situation as far as I understand it:

There are two cool girls that I work with - the cyclist (Julianne) and another cool chick (Liz). I would not say no to something happening with Liz, but I haven't really put any moves on her at all (moves are not my specialty anyway.) I have been jonesing for Julianne for a while and I have flirted with her (as far as I can tell,) but that's about it. I talk to both of them throughout the workday, probably more to Julianne if I have the opportunity. Liz comes over to talk whenever she has time, and so does Julianne. If Liz has a thing for me, she hides it fairly well, because all I've gotten from her are cool friendship vibes. Julianne however has given me some signals that she has a thing for me.

Yesterday, Liz came out with the boys and I and had some beers and hung out by the lake. On the way out of work, I gave her a hug, because she had had a tough day and I thought it might help. We hung out and talked and whatnot after work, but it was nothing big. She was pretty much one of the guys. She is who I wrote the last post about.

Today, Liz was dealing with a party most of the day, so I didn't see her much. Julianne was having a tough day, so I was talking to her more. At one point she looked really beat down, so I gave her a hug. After the hug, she said, "Oh! You can crack my back. I'm going to have to have you do that later." I'm not one to say no to giving a hot girl a hug, so I agreed. After that another girl at work wanted me to try to crack her back, so I tried and failed. I'm assuming that Liz saw all of this and came to her own conclusions (as will be shown later.)

Tonight was also the start of League bowling, and we needed 4 people on the team. There was me and the boys, so we needed one more person. I asked Julianne and she happily agreed to come. By the end of the night, I guess she was just too beat, so she backed out. I asked Liz to come and she seemed happy to come. Kid and I jumped out to get changed and we were going to meet Jim and Liz at the bowling alley (located conveniently right next door to the restaurant where we all work.) Kid and I got to bowling, a bit later Jim showed up, but no Liz. Apparently, Liz bailed while giving Jim a ride to his house, so he could get changed, and as part of her bailing she asked Jim, "So, is Mike a player?" And Jim, being the solid guy he is, refused to answer because he knew that there was nothing he could say that would benefit the situation in any way.

So... what the fuck?

There is talk going around that both of these girls have boyfriends, but I don't really believe that based on what I've seen and heard from each of them. I have no idea what is going on. I have no idea what I've gotten myself into. My brain has been trying and failing to process all of this for the last couple hours, but it's just not getting through.

I suppose it's just about useless to try to figure out women. I don't know what the hell is happening. But, you know what? I'm gonna get up tomorrow, go into work, and I'm gonna just see what happens with both of them. I swear, I have no idea how this shit happens to me, but I think it's probably better that I don't really understand the effect I have on women.

All right, that's enough. Even typing all this out isn't helping to process it. I'm gonna watch some TV and then it's bedtime.