My body is not hooked up correctly. Everything feels off-kilter and wrong. I finished my last exam, and now I'm kicked. I feel sort of tired, but not really. It's more that my vision is blurry, my stomach is rumbly, and I'm feeling lost. There is something that I really want to do, but I don't know what that is. There is something I want to eat, but I don't have it. It's an insane combination of lazy, tired, fidgety and annoyed all at once. I'm thinking I'm getting sick, but I can't be sure.

Maybe this is my body adjusting itself to the real world. No more classes, no more books, no more teachers' dirty looks...

I feel like every decision I've made and every step I've taken have brought me right here, but I'm not sure where that is, where to go from here, or if this is even where I wanted to get to in the first place. There is just far too much happening in my brain right now. I can't stay in this apartment. I need to get out. I don't know what I'll do, but I need to get out of here.

Shower first.