Generic Uneven Entry

I have never had confidence when it came to women. I have never believed that I have the mojo to get the girls that I really want. I still don't believe it, but every once in a while I recognize moments that, if I were smart and took notice of them more often, I might really start believing in myself a little more. I'm quite sure that I have a lot more mojo than I give myself credit for.

Blah, I think I need to let these thought s percolate a little more. I don't know that I can put them out there the way I want to. I guess the real question in my head is: When a guy is trying to stare you down, how do you give him a look that says, "I'm not checking out your girlfriend. She's making eye-contact with me, and I'm not avoiding it because she is super hot."

That's a tough look to give. Probably even more difficult a look to receive and understand.


"Where the Sidewalk Ends" by Shel Silverstein

There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.


Shel Silverstein is childhood for me. I grew up on his books and they still give me tons of pleasure to this day. I love his poems and I love his drawings. It's a bit silly, a bit cheesy, and certainly for kids, but I still enjoy it to this day. And it's not totally because it reminds me of when I was younger, or it makes me feel like a kid, his books are just fun, and touching when they need to be.

Dammit, I am not explaining myself the way I want to tonight. I'm just getting angry at myself for writing crap that doesn't quite say what I want to say. I'm giving up for tonight. I'll try again tomorrow.


Final side note: If you cut soda out of your diet and you are not a coffee drinker, caffeine will start to have a big effect on you again when you ingest too much of it. I don't know why I never learn this.