Over the break, I downloaded a bootleg screener rip of Mirrormask. It's a film fest movie that won't be coming near here any time soon and won't be on DVD any time soon either, but it's done by Neil Gaiman and Dave McKean, my favorite writer and one of my favorite artists, so I had to find it. At first, I found it as a Christmas gift, even though I wanted it myself as well. I got the movie last week. It has been transcoded, burned to DVD and given away as a gift. I can't seem to bring myself to watch it by myself though. It was a movie that right from the first time I learned of its existence, I had planned to watch it with one specific person. Now, I don't expect that to happen, and I can't bring myself to watch the movie on my own.

I know it will be brilliant, but it will also be missing something. Something big. Something from the heart of the experience.

I don't know what to do.